racing thoughts, a watering in my mouth, the scent of a lilac.
mocked now by all the things I could have done.
the laughter after the joke, the ringing in my ears.
ecstasy giving way to fever and delirium.
a sensing of the all expansive, yet nowhere to be found.
seeing it all so clearly now, like a gift.
stumbling somewhere between waking and sleeping.
so subtle, always there, just waiting.
walking around barefoot in my dreams.
feeling…I am not this, I am not this…
and where are you now, and what are you thinking?
i remember, it all seemed so easy then.
the stroke of a brush, a gentle caress.
imagination taking form.
feverish, an apocalyptic snowfall,
riding downhill in graceful arcs.
catching a snowflake on my tongue.
out of nothing, infinity springs forth.
a dab of paint, the breath of life.
Earth dissolves into water, water dissolves into fire,
grace and karma, sister and brother.
Listen, engage the world through a child's eyes.
exhilaration, riding on a narrow ledge over such a deep chasm.
a land shrouded in fog, swimming now, far out in the ocean.
this tidal wave of Samsara.
droning feedback rushes through, coursing upward,
In such proximity, yet always just beyond reach.